I don't think I ever realized before how hard it is to be a parent. It makes you so raw...the love that you have for your child. It changes everything...it makes life more vivid. You get to experience all that childhood wonder that you forgot all over again. My son is a huge ball of energy and I love every minute of it. Of course I do wonder if he is this willful and energetic at 13 months, what is 2 like? I have gotten so many gray hairs from this child already!

He fell off the bed last night...he knows how to get down so I just assumed he would throw his legs over and get off the bed...nope, belly flop to the floor. And he cried so hard I felt horrible!!! Yep, he still sleeps with us and I know that this is going to be a hard habit to break, I know that there are probably a lot of things I am not doing right as a parent, but I would like to think that I am doing all the important things right, that my son has a happy and healthy life and that he knows everyday how much he is loved. I have to admit that I do love him being right next to me every night...he will cuddle into my side and I can't move for hours...but he is my son, my only child.

We went to dinner with my parents last night...Cooper is so crazy about Papaw! I never really thought he would be...usually he is scared of men except Daddy. And of course is Nana can do no wrong, he would stay with her anytime. But I have never left him with anybody except daddy...I can't do it...I am a worry wart!! I know I have to...and when I do I will go crazy and not enjoy myself!! Parenthood is hard, the pay not much more than cuddles and kisses, but I wouldn't change it for the world...I love my son and would love to have another, but I don't think it is in the cards for us...hubby is done! But I sure love my Cooper!