I don't think I ever realized before how hard it is to be a parent. It makes you so raw...the love that you have for your child. It changes everything...it makes life more vivid. You get to experience all that childhood wonder that you forgot all over again. My son is a huge ball of energy and I love every minute of it. Of course I do wonder if he is this willful and energetic at 13 months, what is 2 like? I have gotten so many gray hairs from this child already!

He fell off the bed last night...he knows how to get down so I just assumed he would throw his legs over and get off the bed...nope, belly flop to the floor. And he cried so hard I felt horrible!!! Yep, he still sleeps with us and I know that this is going to be a hard habit to break, I know that there are probably a lot of things I am not doing right as a parent, but I would like to think that I am doing all the important things right, that my son has a happy and healthy life and that he knows everyday how much he is loved. I have to admit that I do love him being right next to me every night...he will cuddle into my side and I can't move for hours...but he is my son, my only child.

We went to dinner with my parents last night...Cooper is so crazy about Papaw! I never really thought he would be...usually he is scared of men except Daddy. And of course is Nana can do no wrong, he would stay with her anytime. But I have never left him with anybody except daddy...I can't do it...I am a worry wart!! I know I have to...and when I do I will go crazy and not enjoy myself!! Parenthood is hard, the pay not much more than cuddles and kisses, but I wouldn't change it for the world...I love my son and would love to have another, but I don't think it is in the cards for us...hubby is done! But I sure love my Cooper!

A great day with my favorite people!

Today my niece Taylor celebrated her last day with her preschool class! They had a picnic at the park to celebrate this milestone. Right off poor 'Doodlebug' (Taylor) busted her mouth pretty good, she was ready to go home, but worked through and enjoyed her afternoon. She will be 6 on Sunday and I cannot believe so much time has past...she is such a wonderful person in our family, and the one that taught me how to love a child so much...She gave me courage to dream for a child of my own...Cooper and he loves her so very much too!

We put a deposit on her party package at Chuck E. Cheese, she goes wild there...she doesn't even need tokens she just loves to play. We went to the mall to get her some new clothes and she insisted on pushing Cooper all over the mall. I thought when I had Cooper she would be jealous and never love him because she and I were so close, but I was wrong, she loves him so much because she knows that he means the world to me and that makes me love her even more. We shared a great day with Taylor and Nana (my mom) and then came home to have dinner with Laura (stepdaughter) and wait for Daddy (David) to come home.

Laura made us spaghetti and garlic bread with fresh baked cookies for dessert. Cooper is using a fork pretty well now and did great with his meal...I still had to wash a lot of food out of his hair but it is so worth it to watch him learn so many things. David came home earlier then expected, so we got him some dinner ready too, he wasn't suppose to be home for dinner, but it was nice that he was able to make it. Cooper tells his sister 'nite nite' every night and it brings tears to my eyes because he is growing so fast, I am so proud but so sad at the same time. Cooper didn't nap all day which usually would make for an unbearable baby, but he was surely loaded tonight. He climbed up on his train table to show off some new dance moves which surely gave me a gray hair or two! But he went to bed without a fight...and I need to go join him. I hope that everyday he knows how much I love him, and would do anything in this world to keep him safe...but just incase he doesn't...I LOVE YOU COOPER!